I'm a 22 year old New Jersey native and future Student Affairs grad. I blog my stream of consciousness, social justice, photography, indie/alt jams, and a dash of Britney Spears.
Moving to South Carolina means no Wawa for a long period of time. So I bought this shirt to not only remind me of home, but also to educate the Southern masses of the gloriousness and deliciousness that is the Wawa lifestyle.
I’ve been on hiatus because my anxiety is triggered a lot by the internet in weird ways. It gets in the way of me literally being able to step back, collect myself, and breathe.
I think lately in the midst of a lot of meditation and enough alone time to recuperate me from the chaotic academic year I’ve had, I’ve started to understand underlying causes for the way I see things and the way I think about myself and my life. I keep vying for a period of time for about 7 months in college where I was comfortable with myself and my state of mind before I had a breakdown and I’ve been up and down since then. That was two years ago. And I know in order for me to grow and change, I need to stop thinking about how I was in the past and focus on where I am right now. It’s easier said than done. It’s really hard. It seems like this elusive goal that I’m never gonna reach on my own. Partially because I’m older and have learned a lot about life since then, but also because I just physically am unable to see things in a normal way sometimes. It has nothing to do with people. It’s just all in my brain. But I’ve been realizing stuff and confronting it. That’s a step.
So. I guess I’m doing okay. I’m slowly putting things into perspective and realizing what I have to do to maintain a sense of stability. I’ve admitted to myself that I need to start seeing someone when I go to grad school because I don’t think I can professionally help students if I don’t help myself.
This is all really vague because I’m literally THE worst at describing myself and my feelings and I make things sound worse than they are or just stupid. Even on the internet. But at least I got something down.
Hands down the best decorated card/envelop I’ve ever received. You encompassed all the good stuff and a few of my favorite people. @junkibrownbutt thank you for being the best invisible roomie ever. #silvers291
Pro-tip: the more you pressure someone to change their lifestyle and do things, the less likely it is that they’re gonna do them.
I just don’t wanna be in this place anymore. My creativity, desire to be active and do things and basically my life is totally stifled and it’s affecting how I feel about everything. Which is basically just sad.
I always have too much to say and not enough time to say it.